Do I Make You Proud

I was watching some videos I downloaded on my Ipod earlier this morning – and I heard a song that had suddenly made me missed my grand mother.

As the lyric goes:

“This is what we dreamed about
But the only question with me now
Is, Do I make you proud?
Stronger than I’ve ever been,
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud?”

The question would I guess be forever left unanswered. I miss you Nanay, no one has an idea how much I miss you and how I am still profoundly hurt because you left me.

I would forever be grateful that its you who raised me. You are the mold that shaped me to who I am today. I know I will never meet anyone who can love me the way you did. Thank you for everything – and I hope somehow, I had made you proud. I love you and you will always be remembered. I will tell my kids, and my kids’ kids, that I had the best grandparents in the world!

Google Answers Everything

Just the other day, my boyfriend asked me why I love him or what trait he has that I could not compare with anyone else. For the first time, in such a long time, I ran out of words. I wasn’t sure if I am just completely upset that morning – that’s why I can not give a single thing. But when he asked me again, I was still speechless. At the back of my mind, come on chezkie, think. It just doesnt work.

I was trying to use twitter at work (FYI: during free time). So far, I am enjoying the application. I read two interesting things last night:

1. Tweets from some fortune teller looking who has so much hatred up to her very core complaining every single damn thing wrong about her life. It is such a pity how someone can be this negative. God bless the absurd.

2. The answer to my dearest boyfriend’s question. And I quote:

” If someone can give you a reason to why they love you – they don’t love you, they like you. Love is based on emotion not definition. “

There you go Mark – blame it on my heart. 🙂

I dont think my title suits this entry since technically, I did not googled the question. But hey, it still has! 🙂

 

 

 

Any Given Sunday

I normally go out on Sundays after being assigned to do night shifts at my current work. Last Sunday, if I am not mistaken, was my first time (or my first time after so many years) to visit Baclaran Church.

Since my companion was late that time, I decided to light some candles first, hoping my prayers would be granted. And ofcourse, a prayer of thanks for all the blessings that the Lord had given me.

I was looking around the place since it was filled up with a LOT of people which was pretty uncomfortable for me. I saw a kid who dipped her little hands in the holy water and made the sign of the cross, and waved the angel goodbye. With her innocent smile, she said “Bye Angel!” Kids 🙂

After that, my boyfriend and I went to Mall of Asia. We were clueless on what to do the entire day. He wanted me to go to a derm clinic and have my tiny warts (which is an indicator that I am actually old) removed. But I disagree, since I am still not comfortable of him seeing me with my pores wide opened after the treatment.

So we checked out what was showing that day. Nothing worth watching. So I asked him if we could see “Hop”. Him not being a fan of cartoons and any kiddie flick, ofcourse he refused. Then we walked around the mall which was on Sale so imagine how crowded it was, and he decided to watch it instead of us walking around.

So we watched the bunny flick – which is from the director of Alvin and the Chipmunks (that I did n’t like – so it was no surprise that I did not like this film too). Mark slept the entire time the movie was playing. 😦

After the flick, we decided to eat our dinner. I actually did not want to eat that time, since I was frustrated about how things are. Mark and I are very different – that sometimes, I just don’t know how to handle it anymore. It was the first time for me to feel that way. Its like, how long will this last? Or how far can we go through with our differences? I was clueless and upset. I am not mad though, just a little upset.

Then we ate our dinner at Jatujak. Thai food! Everything there was good! 🙂 But don’t take my word for it since I am not a good food critic.

*Bagoong Rice*

*Beef with Basil Leaves*

I was eating bagoong rice and I was picking out green mango strands since that was my favorite. After that, Mark did that for me. He patiently picked out the green mangoes and placed it on my plate. Right there and then, I knew that I was with the right man – and all my blues faded like they were never there.

Have you ever found yourself staring at someone and all of a sudden, you’re just blown away? I often feel that with Mark, its like what did I do to deserve someone this special? I do not believe in chances, I know that fate brought me here, and that its God’s will for me to be with him.

Quote for the day:

I was at the wax salon earlier this morning to get my eyebrow shaped, when I read a magazine which had John Estrada and Priscilla on the cover. I was deeply touched by John’s wedding vows, and I can totally relate to it:

” I don’t know what I did good in this world to deserve you. My friends would tease me sometimes that I was probably a saint in my past life and you’re my reward in this lifetime. They also said that you must have been really a bad person in your past life and I’m your karma now.

For quite sometime, I thought you’re too good to be true, but I proved myself wrong. You’re just wonderful the way you are.”

For sample of Jatujak’s menu visit:
http://www.myfoodtrip.com/menu/218611/jatujak.htm